My dearest friends...

Juz finished reading my best friend in tp and feel lyk blogging now... haha... this thought has been with me since last week but i was too tired to type 1 out... anywae i will get back to e topic... whenever i see my fren is sad, i realli wish i can help... but sometyms maybe he dun feel that i am that secure ba... haha... i was there but he didnt see me... maybe i should make myself more visible to him... i was very sad that no one care for him despite the fact that i do... but i was not here to get some credit out of caring him... he helped me alot, in everything in fact... how can i dun care my fren who is so important to me... but maybe he still think that i m not that good for him... i dun wish to think in tis manner cuz i noe that i will be terribly sad if i think in that wae but i cant stop that thought from bubbling up in my head... he is a real good fren for me, and i realli realli hope that he treat me as 1 too... DUDE, I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU...

this new year was a terribly unlucky 1... i kept losing, and i think when i total up e amt that i have lost, it will be ard $500+ ba... haha... no luck in everything, mahjong, blackjack etc... lol... but thank god that my mum wins... which is more important...

i am having a mixed feeling now... i wonder will i ever successfully get to be wif her anot... haha... her reply seems optimistic for me, lyk wad my fren said, but i was still scare... haha... i think let nature take its own course ba... but i will care for her definitely... she is e one and i have fallen for her...

on e other side, e other best fren of mine in tp (i got 4 juz in case ppl tot that i have a dozen) is now troubled over relationship too.. he falls for a gal, but e gal dun seems to gif her an optimistic reply... how i wish they will be together cuz this fren of mine is a gd guy man... ahah...hopefully he and me can successfully 'wooed' e gal whom we lyk... jia you my fren...

last fridae which is 1 dae b4 new year eve, while i was doing my communication skill project at my fren house, i received a devastating piece of news... my dearest 1 leaving me... she will be leaving me, i suppose, forever... she didnt die( choy choy choy) but we are juz too unfortunate as we cannot be with her anymore... i was stoned at that moment, guess my fren saw it too but i still continue to work on wif e project... but i really feel lyk crying... HER action was fast, another msg came and sae SHE no longer using that hp no... she apologised, but wads e point... SHE brought her awae... wad can i sae? but we haf to put e blame on him too.. too bad... everything was back to square 1...

tml i still have maths tutorial quiz and hpi tutorial quiz but i haf no mood to study actually despite e fact that i am motivated by love... haha... hope this motivation will last... and i will get motivated by her love soon...