Its being weeks from e last posting... haha... i think i too lazy to blog liao... 2dae juz feel lyk blogging, maybe its peer pressure ba... cuz they kept asking me to update... but i juz hope to get something off my chest too.. so blog lor... lol
Weeks after the exam n weeks after i have proposed to her, but she haven give me a reply... i somehow noe wads e reply is going to be, so i din push her for 1. i believe or think that without e reply, i may not think n get hurted so much ba, but that doesn't mean i dun love her anymore... in my heart, she still stay there... sad to sae, i cannot get e 1 i loved to loved me, but life still goes on ba perhaps...
alot of reasons oso kips me from pushing her for a reply, financial... haha... stupid me... i love money than her, some ppl might think tt... haha... my family is under financial stress that even my dog is sick, she cannot go for treatment... who can help me? nobody except heaven... ti gong... i m so jealous when all my fren are so carefree without e nid to wry abt money... y m i having tis type of problem... haha.. maybe its ti gong who wans me to learn from all these experiences ba, to make me think more positively...
i wan N70, so i going to work for it during tis vacation, but i believe i cannot make it ba i guess... haha... mum sae maybe she nids e money, so i will sure gif her, though its pretty unwilling, but i hafta be more sensible n matured, tt i used to be in her eyes... haha... not to tell ppl i m...
l still love her more than anything else, but guess i hafta stick back to reality n surrender... reality wins e battle this tym round... sigh...
You're my everything =D