I am useless... I cant help my family in any other way... I am so worried now... who can help? i need the enlightenment from heaven... i need the help from heaven too...

How i wish now i am resting in peace... May i noe what wae to die is the best wae? How i wish i can juz close my eyes and have my nap then thats makes an end for my whole life of 18 years?

If things dont go on correctly, haha there goes me as well haha...

But i will use this blog to make my last post of course...

Dont think i am siao, for which i dont even noe what happen to me as well...

People say choosing to die cant solve any problems, but a selfish me would sae it solve every single thing haha... I am just a week balloon...

I realli feel like crying... I want to cry...

I am crying...

Last words to be made...