Haha i think i cannot stand the working enviroment for the packaging job, and i think they cant stand me too so they never ask me to work again lol... anywae i think its a blessing not working there lol... and i found a tuition job wahahaha... 1.5h per session, 2 sessions per week... 140 bucks for 8 sessions... but now that kid is havin his exam, so i am going more often... $_$

There are simply too many surprises in my life lol... somehow, my sixth sense told me that this student of mine is not a chinese haha... and when i went to his house todae, i get to know that he is an INDIAN lol... and i am teaching him chinese and mathematics... i guess his dad should be chinese, erm, muz be chinese ba lol.. if not he learn chinese for what lol... this is my 1st student, and he has real short span of attention period... and he is damn active, cant stop moving... his mum told me that her target for the son is a pass, 50-60 or 60 something.. i try my best to teach him... haha... i will be very serious and strict, which i guess none of my frens see me like that b4 haha...

My stupid mind kips on changing... and now i think the final verdict will be N73 lol... let's see how thing goes haha...

I would like to ask a question to those who read my blog... Am i putting a mask in front of you all? am i xu wei? hahah... i would like to see whats the answer my frens will be giving me... cuz i think i am always expressing my true side to all of my frens, except those that i dont like la of cuz haha...

I am trying my best to change to a better person... and of cuz i always fail to do so... i guess i dont fit to be a fren of his... for which our relationship seems to be deteriorating as days pass by... i am afraid... and of cuz sad... i put in all my efforts been a good fren, but it seems that i am not giving enuf ba haha... i used to be a bad person, and never give in to anybody... and i learnt my lessons years ago... and now i am changing to be a better person(thats what i think la haha), but it seems that i am still wrong... haha... how contradicting can it be? somehow i realise that whenever i give in, i am always getting things that hurt me... secondary skool i had an incidence... that hurts me alot...

When i was sec 1, i always suan people and cannot tahan people suaning me haha.. sort of childish la but its true haha... when i realise that nobody likes me anymore, and there are lots of people talking bad things behind me, i changed...

When sec2 onwards, i try to refrain from suaning overboard, and i suan for joking oli.. and i try to gif in to my frens, no matter what, but i got a great setback eventually haha... its a real disastrous period until i met yuda and accompany haha....

And now, history sort of repeat itself again haha... i think i am not faking to any of my best buddies... but if u guys think i am, then i dunno what to do le haha... maybe i need to learn how to act in front of them, so that they can think that i am not faking haha... i am not putting a mask at all haha... but what can i do to make people believe that i am not xu wei leh? haha... i need enlightenment lol...

Affections and affections... loads of them... i am so heart broken... i think i am juz not fit to be any of my fren's fren... haha... my character simply sucks i guess... or maybe i did alot of sins, so i am having my retributions now, and the 1st will be all my frens leaving me, including my best fren... haizzz...

Family problems + Friendship problems = Tragedy to me...

I wanna cry...