Its been a long time i blogged... haha.... finally after so long.. bo pian too tired le everydae *excuse* haha... so i gotta sae what boring things i did during last few days haha...

Exam ended on 1st of september, with the biochemistry 2 paper that closes the chapter. i tot i can get A for biochem, which is the one and only A i can get this semester, but as i progress in the revision, my hope and target dropped to B+, B and eventually C+ haha... kind of disappointed, or should i say i am very disappointed... haiz...

I am prepared to get a GPA of 2.5 this time round, for sure... sigh..

So the next dae, which is a saturdae, i went to work in the expo... john little mega sales... i went to do the set up. Its extremely tiring and strength-consuming, and people like me, a weakling, will struggle in the setting up as there are to many wagons and bins to open and display... and this sparks my mind - its time to exercise.. haha... anyway working there is fun... alot of freedom, especially i am with my manager, who is very good with me too... and my godma haha... she is there in expo oso haha.. at least i wont feel lonely and strange there haha...

Sunday wise is actually a day for me to join superstar... as usual, i backed out and leave an empty promise behind haha... i am such a disappointment... kind of regret, but i noe i wont make it anywae... i like to sing haha, but like to sing and can sing is a totally different thing... guess i will just stick back to reality and move on with the hope of having a career in singing leaving behind and let it diminish gradually...

Monday i went to expo work again.. 9am report for work and 10am is ready to leave hahaha... so i walk around freely lol... nothing to do... realli lol... even my manager said that to me haha... she ask me to walk around also lol... until the brand dettol came with 4 pellets of goods without price tag on haha... so i helped them and also to kill some time haha...

Went to mahjong in the night at my fren's place... played overnight with an 'earning', wei haha, a winning of $36 haha... somemore i game a xiao san yuan haha... its soooo fun... my favourite game is mahjong and the only thing i am good in is also mahjong haha...

Tuesday is a good day... i love tuesdae haha...

Today i went to class bbq, and as usual, own groups start to gather among ownself and the whole class din bond much together also, feels quite redundant actually but as long as our group is fine with one another, its fine with me haha... as that is my greatest concern...

Recently there are alot of people died... the 'crocodile man', Steve Irwin, died due to a sting by the stingray during the time when he is filming a documentary show... my fren's fren, 20 year old, committed suicide as he broke off with his girlfren, a 4 year relationship... and his mum withnessed the whole event as he asked his mum to look out of the window as he jumped... haiz... i feel really sad for the mother... i just cant imagine...

Life is really short... cherish it and stay happy everytime because you wont know how long you are going to live... its not a cursing, its juz a random thought... i must try to stay as cheerful as i can everydae, and bring joy and fun to every single one of my beloved frens...

Even though i told myself to be happy everydae, but i am still troubled by something in my heart... i am really really troubled... i scare i went back to the past, but its the past that makes me feel sooooooo happy... i never feel such thing before since that time... i wish to turn back time but i cant too... and i cannot oso! haha... i must try to control my mind, as this thought or mindset is recurring again... i am afraid that i will be like the past, but ironically speaking, its the past that makes me so happy... haiz... what to choose?

Life is always questioned with choices, what to choose is another problem...