Its 230am now and i experienced a disaster... Life is always filled with unexpected stuffs... or izzit there are simply too many signs and symtoms which we didnt realise? i am totally unprepared... but i know i must be strong...

2 sides for me to choose... siding there is wrong... siding here is not right either... somehow i realised that the brightness of happiness started to dim down and eventually leads to ever darkness...

I am always experiencing disasters that friends of my same age doesnt have to experience... i guess this might be the retribution that i accumulate during my previous life... so i can 'enjoy' it once and for all... i just cant believe it... but i gotta live with it... how ironic it is to be...

Please... i beg u please... i dont wanna suffer anymore.. i really dont...

I dont wanna be forsaken... but i guess this time round i am... i am simply a loser in every battle...

I want, or rather i hope that i can be blessed...