Haha i am actually in the com lab at AS lvl 6 haha... finally i can access to internet right here lol.. think i will be like a nomad, going around and search for sources for internet access, and not food lol... alright anyway i got loadz of stuffs to share, but i shall leave it to the time when i have my internet access back at home haha...

I know, right now, i am lost haha... be it the touch with the outside world(because no internet), or many many other factors haha... i just simply feel that there is a lack of sense of belonging... i know right now what i need to do... but its super hurting haha... i am having great sense of satisfaction in my workplace, but i am real bankrupt in friendship... its super contradicting for my feelings... happy in this moment, sad in the next lol... but i guess thats what's my life is...

Gaining everything in the world means nothing to me actually... what i need most or yearn most is accompany haha... sounds pretty superficial right? but thats what my deepest thoughts... at home i got my daddy, mummy and baby... but outside wise? haha... think i am asking for too much... but asking only ma haha... whether will it be given wise is another problems haha...

I am wrong for whatever stuffs i did... but one thing i did correctly... that is i decided not to pester you anymore... i know you find me being a nuisance haha... which i realise i am one when i put myself in your shoe...

I am in a caste system that i learned in history in secondary one... i am simply the pariah-the outcaste...

I am looking for a place... a place that is filled with wonders, friends and every warmth i need.. because i am very cold right now haha... hopefully there is a place like this... so despite the fact that i am living in this reality world, i can still sense the warmth that i need so much...

A wild thought again haha...