Juz came back from mount elizabeth hospital... went to visit a-li jie jie, my cousin... she suddenly had low blood level inside her body, so she travel from indonesia to singapore and admitted to the hospital to have blood transfusion. and she have to transfuse 4 bags of blood...

Heard from mum saying that doctor says her condition doesnt seems optimistic, at most a few more months to live, and i read from her report that says she got maglinant tumour somewhere in the colon if i am not wrong. though she had her operation, but there are still cells over there... no hope for a cure, that is stated in the report. but she can undergo chemotherapy, which may be a hope. however, she cant afford it and she dont want to... she has a realli very pesimistic mindset which is very difficult to change it, and i am sooooo worried for her...

She keep on asking me to go indonesia batam with her next week, and mum suggested that we will go after new year... and what she replied was she dont think she have the time to wait until after new year... the moment i heard it i nearly cry on the spot, but i have to be strong in front of her, thats why i am crying right now... i realli scare that she leave me... i love her alot... she took care of me when i was young... she is like my babysitter and tolerate all my nonsense... i cant bear to see her leaving me...

If she realli cannot make it through this time round, i will put down everything in singapore and go to indonesia and accompany her... its not that i am irresponsible, but i do it out of the love i have towards her... the kinship... you can make it through de a-li jie jie... jia you!!! think positively and everything will turn out fine...

I am praying right now that miracle will come out... pls... gods in heaven and everywhere... pls help her...

I love you...