When can my life go back to normal?
When? When? When? i dunno seriously... negative thoughts here and there... and i do have the thought of ending my life... but what to do? who can help? nobody... its enough said that my dad condition isnt that optimistic... but how? mum is going crazy as days go by... debts are heading towards the deadline and looking for us one by one... i am going crazy soon...
It sounds foolish to admire other people's life... but what can i do? i am really super depressed at this moment now... every word i am typing juz makes me wanna cry more... maybe i am juz too fragile.. weak... but i hope i can let out my emotions into this tiny blog... it doesnt help much though... but well, at least better than nothing...
Well the nix feel days or weeks i wont be eating in skool haha... maybe its time to slim down... but i just dont have the money to spend i guess... cuz there are simply alot more for mum and i to take it... i need a shoulder to let me cry seriously lol... maybe crying out can make me feel better... erm sounds super girly hor lol... but thats what i really feel at this point of time...
Maybe kanna strike by lightning can ends everything smoothly, cuz i am not a good and filial son either... juz let me die...
You're my everything =D