Well actually din intend to blog today cuz i actually worked until 730pm and reached home at 9pm... so i am already half dead haha... was thinking about something the whole day while i was working, and its already been in my brain for one week i have been thinking about this problem...
Feels troubled once again... and thats because i can sense that dad's condition is getting worst or he might have another stroke again perhaps... whats makes me so depress is that he himself dont have the will to get better i think... maybe he tried... but i doubt so... mum is so tired and pissed at times when taking care of him... so am i... i guess thats plain human nature... but we are trying our best, and it seems like things just dont turn out well as it is supposed to be... i always had this intuition and its just so accurate... everytime i feel happy and enjoying life with my family, and especially things going smoothly, bad things will happen and hinder our way... same old thing, everytime... cant we deserve a chance to stay happily ever after? i doubt so...
Months coming to a dead end... i am already damn thrifty and minimised my spendings... food in zoo is free and i am saving everyday... only thing i buy to pamper myself for my hardwork is green apple green tea... and the most i spent is on my dog.. her shampoo and herbal medicine... its all the necessities, but now i got to find a way to earn and so i can pay for these necessities... i guess i need to take up tuition, if i am able to find one, to help pay for all these... without the allowance in zoo, and i am not working part time anymore, it is so much taxing on the money we are having... and its like coming to a dead end... i am stressed over this as usual...
I decided to stay at home during my off days whenever possible... actually i just dont feel like going out... no.1 reason is being tired, and no.2 reason is that its just too taxing to my purse... so if i ever reject my frens from asking me out, i think thats the 2 main reasons... hopefully they will understand... its not the commitment that i am not giving, its just the situition i am facing...
Exceptional case is this coming saturday... and perhaps nix week...
Alritez... since i am bloggin today on my emotion, i shall post 2 pics that will gross some people off, especially shahirah, mathilda and kerensa haha...
You're my everything =D