What my future gonna be?
Its been one month since i last blogged haha... the 1st post of year 2008... loads of things to update on my blog haha... however i will try not to write grandmother stories, which i like actually hahaha..
1st thing to say is to those people who cared for me... thanks alot for ya concerns and care... i am fine cuz i am back to blog haha... well i will still continue to stay strong in front of everyone haha..
I got 3 new family members... my gerbils from zoo fragile forest haha... thanks to them for giving me that lol... ginger, genie and oreo... and not forgetting my baby lee wahaha... i am glad to have them around haha... thanks alot for ya accompany...
Oh ya... last wed i went to check my body for NS... and i still dont understand why i get pes A... am i really that healthy? i dont know...
2 weeks before the finishing of sip... i cant bear to leave that place... but i guess i can extend my stay there haha... cuz dr serena asked me on tuesday when i passed her the appraisal form... the employer type of questions haha...
'"What you would like to do before your army?" She asked
"Continue to work here?", I said.
"Well we would like to let you work here definitely. Other section like show section has part timers, i dont see why we cant employ too. We cant be asking you to continue volunteering here, i think your parents will definitely kill me haha." She said.
"I will check with HR and update you again." She added.
I laughed cuz i am too happy to know that haha... There was once when i and feza was arranging our off day and she came and check out what we were doing, and i actually dropped a question by asking her whether i can extend or not, and she smile and say yes. i am so happy to know that haha... and when tapir keeper nanda said he is going to send fecal sample, she told him can send it to me -- the poo boy lolll... then she added "too bad you are leaving, but you are coming back right?" I am really very happy when she said all this to me... well maybe people who actually read my blog will think i am boasting or what, but i just wanted to write down anything happy that happened in my life, so in future at least i can review it again haha...
I am very happy everyday haha... a great contrast when last month i said i am going to die right? i guess definitely there will be people thinking that i am trying to gain attention by saying those stuffs... but i doubt nobody will know how i feel when i write the post... i am still trying to be happy everyday, and definitely in front of everyone... at least i can always show my happiness and not my sadness... keeping these sadness to myself might be the best option...
And now i am pondering what my future will be? i just dont see any light ahead... it seems so dim and even dark... i wanna be a vet, will i succeed? i really dont know... i hope i can be... i hope...
A new year ahead, but i am still stuck behind over this... I just want to find my true love... but i doubt i can haha... 19 years and its still like this, i am still trying to get over it... and just one more month before i reach 20, i guess there wont be any changes to it as well... maybe staying single for my whole life is what's meant to be predestined for my life...
My mind is all filled with you haha... sounds mushy huh... but i just trying to erase you from my mind... i just trying hard to get over you... but i think it will really take time... and now i am still thinking about you...
I love you, my wishful thinking...
You're my everything =D