Effort & recognitions not equal to result...
Result's out... and everybody got theirs... i got mine after treating butterfinger... but i was so demoralised and upset (and all the words describing sadness) after seeing the message... everyone in the vet dept consoled me and so on... thanks to their consolation... but deep inside my heart, i just feel so heartbroken and depressed...
I din meant to show any black face... so sorry if anyone sees that, esp anwar.. pai seh bro! i tried to joke and smile already... din mean to show a blank and expressionless face while doing the post mortem for the indian wolf...
I held on to my tears after i received it... just dont feel like its a good thing to cry in front of everyone... especially almost all the dept ppl are there to see me getting my results...
Yupz... result is just an alphabet... what i am upset is not the drop in gpa or anything, but is the effort i put in so much and thats what i yielded... isnt it depressing? effort and recognition is not equilvalent to the results i got back... and one more thing i am trying to figure out is the mistakes i made in my project... what went wrong? i wanto improve in future, or rather, do i have a future to improve on? i dont know...
This is really the 1st time i cared so much for my results... mainly due to the fact that its an effort that i put in... just finished crying and i dont feel much better after that... sorry for showing attitude to ppl who talked to me in msn... i just dont feel like talking to anyone right now...
I am just a useless bum... but i wont show my sadness to anyone in my workplace... this is at least what i am trying my best to do... since i am useless in practically everything... no theory and practical knowledge...
For the next 3 days i am enjoying my off days... planned to ask my frens out initially, but i guess no point as well... since everyone is busy with their work also, maybe its just not a good idea to disturb ppl... i will try to use the next 3 days to recuperate then... which i dont think i can... going to lock myself in the bedroom...
Feeling so useless and helpless right now...
You're my everything =D